Sunday, May 8, 2011

Jealousy

I am not a huge fan of Mothers Day. Wait that is not true, I am grateful on this day that I am a mother of two absolutely wonderful, beautiful little girls. I am so proud that I got chosen to raise these blessings. I hope that I always show them the love and compassion that I never got as a child, or even now as an adult. I hope they never feel that I don't think they are good enough or pretty enough or that if they do one little thing wrong that I love them anyless. I will never lock them out or tell them they are stupid. I will never judge them if they have a few more pounds than what I think they should have. I will give them proper freedom and not keep them from having sleep overs. I will not let them be the kids that no one wants to stay with because their mom is so mean and yells all the time. I will not call them names and will not discourage them in whatever adventure they want to partake. On this Mothers Day I have one wish and that is to NOT be like my mother. I am so jealous of everyones post about how wonderful and kind their mothers are, I hate that when everyone else was putting up pics of their moms for Mothers day I feel left out because I don't feel that way about my mom. I wish I had that kind if mom and I pray and hope that my kids look at me as one of those truly exceptional moms that they can consider their best friend. I love you My Maddy Brooke and Magaily Alice, I promise to you on this day to always love you unconditionally.

3 comments:

  1. That is such a beautiful blog even if it was written out of hurt and pain. I love you and I think you are an amazing mother. You try so hard every day to make sure your girls know they are loved. I think they know how much they mean to you, just going by how happy they are. You did that. You made that happiness. And you do it everyday.

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  2. so sorry things have been so hard for you :( coming from 2 parents who had to overcome horrible alcoholic abusive parents, the drive to do better than what you had can change so much! And you are an amazing and wonderful mom--i know your kids adore you!

    i saw this online today--it may need to be your thing:

    "I celebrate 'those who survived in spite of their mothers day'."

    love you dear!

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  3. Ok so I know I am a little late (or a lot maybe) but I just read this, and I have to tell you I am proud of you. I am proud of my friend who is constantly talking about her girls, how pretty they are, how smart they are, what they want to be when they grow up, what great dancers they are. You are an amazing mother and a wonderful friend. Your heart is full of love and you are giving it freely to those around you! I adore you!

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